While thinking what to post in my online journal today (Dec.23, 2010), I rolled my eyes above my closet to search for some ideas and...puff!
My gaze darted on the diary I kept for sometime which I put between my photo albums, curious what I wrote several months ago, I stood up and pulled the book and Oh Ow!While flipping the pages, my eyes glared on the entries I made last December 2009 and...
...and the rest is history ^________^
To make it lighter and less slushy, I search for some stage play, movie,TV series quotes that would describe each entry.
From the movie THE STORY OF US:"There are some hurts that you never completely get over. And you think that time will diminish their presence and to a degree it does, but it still hurts because well, hurt hurts"
How it relates: The reality of hurt itself...the idea of being hurt.
So what now? Well, loving someone would not just fade overnight, it takes sometime to get over from it especially if it's genuine. I always wear my sleeves on and I carried it wherever I go, so I won't expect that I will be spared from pain. Hurt itself never cease in just one blink, you don't need to force yourself to eradicate pain, it will just heal in its own time.
So what now? Well, loving someone would not just fade overnight, it takes sometime to get over from it especially if it's genuine. I always wear my sleeves on and I carried it wherever I go, so I won't expect that I will be spared from pain. Hurt itself never cease in just one blink, you don't need to force yourself to eradicate pain, it will just heal in its own time.
How it relates: Well, the truth is....deep inside...I always believe...I found him...
So what now? Later in life, we learn to realize that people have choices and it should be respected. One poet said: "If it happens that you are in love with the person who didn't love you, don't worry there's nothing wrong with you, it's just happen love didn't land in that person's heart" It's true! I know there's still someone better prepared by God for me and I am willing to wait for that amazing gift to come no matter how long it takes.
So what now? Later in life, we learn to realize that people have choices and it should be respected. One poet said: "If it happens that you are in love with the person who didn't love you, don't worry there's nothing wrong with you, it's just happen love didn't land in that person's heart" It's true! I know there's still someone better prepared by God for me and I am willing to wait for that amazing gift to come no matter how long it takes.
From American TV series ONE TREE HILL: "I'm tired of feeling bad. I'd rather feel nothing. It's better, it's easier"
How it relates: I uttered this line 30 times a day.
So what now?I am also tired of feeling bad about every bad circumstance, I am tired of thinking why I am so undesirable and unattractive, why someone rejected me. I am tired of it, so I would rest my mind from feeling bad.
So what now?I am also tired of feeling bad about every bad circumstance, I am tired of thinking why I am so undesirable and unattractive, why someone rejected me. I am tired of it, so I would rest my mind from feeling bad.
From the movie MY BEST FRIEND'S WEDDING: "If you love someone, you say it right then...out loud...otherwise the moment just passes you by"
How it relates: Did I do this? Hmmm...no regrets, in fact it was the most honest thing I'd ever uttered in life that if ever I would meet God along the way I could look straight to His eyes and say: You know God I'd never been so honest in my whole life!
So what now?I'm glad I did it or else I will be left wondering in the wilderness with wrong assumptions, at least I was able to release the questions that fidgeted in my mind for so long. Though I reaped a hell of troubles plus a horrifying humiliation and rejection, I am still thankful the painful encounter happened because it freed me from the torturing illusion that someday I will be sailing to the sunset of my life with him.
So what now?I'm glad I did it or else I will be left wondering in the wilderness with wrong assumptions, at least I was able to release the questions that fidgeted in my mind for so long. Though I reaped a hell of troubles plus a horrifying humiliation and rejection, I am still thankful the painful encounter happened because it freed me from the torturing illusion that someday I will be sailing to the sunset of my life with him.
From the movie CHASING AMY: "I love you. And not in a friendly way, although I think we’re great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I’m sure that’s what you’ll call it. And it’s not because you’re unattainable. I love you. Very simple, very truly. You’re the epitome of every attribute and quality I’ve ever looked for in another person. I know you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you’d ever consider. But I had to say it. I can’t look into your eyes without feeling that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can’t talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. I know this will probably queer our friendship-no pun intended-but I had to say it, because I’ve never felt this before, and I like who I am because of it. And if bringing it to light means we can’t hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But I couldn’t allow another day to go by without getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is the inevitable shoot-down. And I’ll accept that. And even if we never speak again after tonight, please know that I’m forever changed because of who you are and what you’ve meant to me, which-while I do appreciate it-I’d never need a painting of birds bought at a diner to remind me of.”
How it relates: Hmmm...sounds so familiar...Darn!
So what now?If I have to comment on the above quote then surely I will land in a hot water again.
From the movie BREAKFAST AT TIFFANY'S: "You know what's wrong with you, Mr. Whoever-you-are? You're chicken, you've got no guts. You're afraid to stick out your chin and say, "Okay, life's a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to each other, because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness." You call yourself a free spirit, a "wild thing," and you're terrified somebody's gonna stick you in a cage. Well baby, you're already in that cage. You built it yourself. And it's not bounded in the west by Tulip,Texas
So what now?If I have to comment on the above quote then surely I will land in a hot water again.
From the movie BREAKFAST AT TIFFANY'S: "You know what's wrong with you, Mr. Whoever-you-are? You're chicken, you've got no guts. You're afraid to stick out your chin and say, "Okay, life's a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to each other, because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness." You call yourself a free spirit, a "wild thing," and you're terrified somebody's gonna stick you in a cage. Well baby, you're already in that cage. You built it yourself. And it's not bounded in the west by Tulip,
How it relates: No, I am not going to shout this to anybody, no one has the right to rule one's life. It's none of my business. I just find this quote so funny and cute that I thought the whole Universe would melt if I won't include this in my post.
So what now?Well, nothing (lol!) I just find this quote so amazing and thought-provoking that I spent fifty seconds reading the whole paragraph...and giggled after.
From Richard Wagner's opera TRISTAN AND ISOLDE: "Why long for things if they're not meant to be ours?"
How it relates: I often longed "that thing" too but then I realized, there are things in life that are not meant to be.
So what now? It's an innate character of a person to long for something precious, hoping that life will cooperate in the end, though sometime the outcome is the opposite to what we're expecting, it is still part of being human to feel happy with a thought that someday your road might cross again and that Cupid might dart his arrow...might! and all the "might have been".
So what now?Well, nothing (lol!) I just find this quote so amazing and thought-provoking that I spent fifty seconds reading the whole paragraph...and giggled after.
From Richard Wagner's opera TRISTAN AND ISOLDE: "Why long for things if they're not meant to be ours?"
How it relates: I often longed "that thing" too but then I realized, there are things in life that are not meant to be.
So what now? It's an innate character of a person to long for something precious, hoping that life will cooperate in the end, though sometime the outcome is the opposite to what we're expecting, it is still part of being human to feel happy with a thought that someday your road might cross again and that Cupid might dart his arrow...might! and all the "might have been".
Movie quotes reflect emotions, afterall, those quotes were taken from the experiences of real people. After writing this post and closing my diary, I took a deep breath and smiled...
It's been a year since the fierce encounter, but it feels like only yesterday. The hurt is still there, the pain still resonates, but the most important thing is I am okay now and I am completely healed and feel vindicated.
I have the last laugh! :-P I am now relieved.
MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!
It's been a year since the fierce encounter, but it feels like only yesterday. The hurt is still there, the pain still resonates, but the most important thing is I am okay now and I am completely healed and feel vindicated.
I have the last laugh! :-P I am now relieved.
MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!
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