It’s crazy how my day would
sometimes end up in pandemonium as if it was being consumed by whatever strong
energy presents in the surrounding, which at times left me emotionally drain.
It’s not that I am sad or
troubled or struggling towards something but sometimes it feels like I am just
dragging myself into a senseless state where there’s nothing I could do but to
get on with all the compromises. Am I experiencing a quarter-life crisis?
It’s terribly upsetting because it
feels like I am an automated machine merely following what’s being programmed, as
if I am an obedient dog that wrestles to the ground when being commanded. I felt so useless. I'm stuck with stuff I don't feel like doing, so distressing to realize that I could never maximize my potentials and could not fit in.
Most often than not, I am in the middle of contemplation, pondering hard how to move forward and achieve what I always wanted.
Did I overestimate my goal? Or navigated the wrong path? I still did not hit my target. My dreams are still dangling somewhere and I am tired chasing with time.
Most often than not, I am in the middle of contemplation, pondering hard how to move forward and achieve what I always wanted.
Did I overestimate my goal? Or navigated the wrong path? I still did not hit my target. My dreams are still dangling somewhere and I am tired chasing with time.
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